it's been a decent night. as i was talking to someone earlier, i was telling them i think i actually smiled today. not just one of my get through the day, make everyone thing i'm managing smiles, but an actual genuine smile. i like those, and quite frankly i miss them. i hope i can get one again tomorrow.

you know, one genuine smile in a whole week... it's not very much, but it's something. it's a start.