This past night, Jeremy stole my dreams again. It's hard to believe I can really change my thoughts and feelings for him when even in my sleep he tugs on my heart...

On another note, I think I have come to a realization about next year. By staying in Iowa, I'm forcing myself to settle. And, as much as I love some of the parts about Coe, I'm not ready to do that. I still have dreams and ambitions that can't be reached here. My heart is still wild, and will not be calmed by the life I've always known.

I have good friends who are talking about staying where they are, because they've finally reached a point where they could really be happy keeping things the same. And I'm happy for them. :)

I just need the chance to be free. Although, I should clarify that I'm still not deciding anything for sure until I've been there, until I can see what I'm getting msyelf into.