Day two of having the room to myself... I'm feeling so at ease right now. No one is here to distract my thoughts, and it's so beautiful and quiet.

There's not really anyone online right now; the few people who are all have away messages up. So, I've been looking at the pictures on my wall, reminiscing. There have been so many people, so many good friends in my life who have meant a lot to me. Many of these friends were only in my life a year, maybe two- but they have meant the world to me, and still do on days like this when I have time to remember what good times we had.

I think I'm really scared about moving on to another stage of life, and letting go of everyone I know and love here at Coe. These people- I've only known them for one year, but maybe they're only meant to be seasons of my life too. I love them so much, but I don't have to let them go when I move on, or if I leave. And staying here- if it doesn't make me happy, it isn't the right decision. They can be wonderful people and still not have the power to make this the right place for me.

Whatever happens, I've always got my memories- even of those who never had a picture. Jer is still an image in my mind- forever he will be. John is a fading blur of a world of new experiences. I'm going to be okay with this.