I really need to grow up... I'm so pissed off right now about something I'm not doing anything productive about.

I'm really aggrivated / hurt / upset that it's the last week of classes and Kristin is making herself so busy that I won't get much of anytime to hang out with her. The free time she has, she chooses to use to watch TV or visit people off campus.

It's silly of me to be so upset over this; I mean, yeah- two weeks left and I don't know if I'm coming back.. of course I want to spend all the time I can with people here. But I can't expect them to devote their time to me back. What are friends for, if not to dissapoint you once in a while? No one is perfect.

Plus, I havn't said anything to Kristin about it. For the most part I've stopped talking to her for the few moments she is here, I've been going out of my way not to be around when she'll be in the room for five minutes. In short, I've been stewing in my own misery.

But, fuck it. I don't feel the need to tell her- I'm happy being unhappy, at least I'm getting some time to myself. She'll look back this summer when I don't come back next year and wonder why she didn't spend more time hanging out with me- and if she doesn't she doesn't. Nothing to be done about it.

I wish I had somewhere else to go hang out. I wish I could just not be here when she is here so that she could feel lonely too- maybe then she would devote some energy to spending time wiht me. But I have no where to go, and I wouldn't do that to her anyway.

I'm going to work on not being a bitchy grumpy person so that when she gets back I can smile, be in a good mood, and not gripe anymore at her.