I'm awake, after a night of trying to fall aslepe but feeling too sick to lie down. I'm really scared now- In all truth, I have one day left. Tomorrow I'm going home, and many people are leaving this afternoon.....

I'm probably getting really nervous and scared for nothing. I might come back next year, and even if I don't come back to Coe, I could end up going to college in the cities... so what is there to be so scared of? Time moves faster than I'll ever believe, and I know that because just yesterday I was crying when my mother abandoned me on this campus.

The steps in life I take from here on out are really all my own. The guidance and help I've had growing up is more or less gone, all that's left are a few voices reassuring me that I can find the right answers on my own.

Never will I truely be alone, for wherever I go I have the love and support of my dearest relatives and my closest friends. And, life will never be easy.. because I am only human, and humans have a weird way of making things much more complicated than they need to be.

I don't have a point. I guess I'm just trying to clear up in my head the reasons for why I'm going away this summer, and why I'm detatching myself from most of the world I've known.

Will I come back again?