The sappy romantic movies I've been watching all weekend have finally caught up with me. I want a relationship- I want the hard times that lead to the good moments- the ones that let you know no matter what happens you'll always love the other person. I want the tears of pain that come with the joy of making up. I want to wake up in the morning knowing I have someone to wake up for... egads, it's crazy.

Everyone gets longings- and everytime I talk to another person, it just hits me harder that everyone's looking for the same thing. No one wants to be alone, we're all just looking for that someone to hold onto. And, as hard or easy as it may be to find them, we're all hanging onto the dreams of keeping our sanity along the way.

Lots of people say that to really find someone, you have to stop looking for them, and suddenly they'll just be there. I'm not looking, but it still doesn't make me want it any less. Back to dreaming for now. : ) Dreaming is what keeps me alive these days.