Yipes. I've been studying/playing silently most of the day since it's finals week. This has involved headphones and my computer. I know it's been a long day, because my ears itch from one set of headphones (they're wearing out), and hurt from my other set (which are the smaller kind, that hurt after having them shoved in my ears for so long).
In all truth, I'm getting a very nervous clump in my tummy. In the next three days, I have 4 finals- or rather, 3 real finals, 2 final critiques, and band practice. My hardest final is after my busiest day, which means I won't be able to study much for it the day before, and another of my hard finals is on my busiest day. This leaves two hard finals, with not a lot of study time. I shoul've started sooner.
Grades didn't mean shit to me until this year. And the only reason the matter now is because it's been made painstakingly clear to me that if my grades aren't good, I won't reap the benefits that come with good grades (taking the classes I want to take, when I want to take them, and being able to find other schools to run to when I can't stay at the one I'm at). In all truth, I hate feeling like grades matter so much. Who's going to care in 5 years if I got an A or a C in Calculus? Why's it going to matter 10 years down the road if I chose not to graduate with honors?
Anyway, this is crap. I'm going to play for a little bit (it's time for a break), and then back to studying in hopes that some of this information will stick. (somewhat unlikely, but worth the effort.)