Thinking more about what I'm doing next fall, I'm really at a loss. I've been talking with Ben tonight, and although he's probably right in what he's been saying, it's definatly not what I want to hear.

I don't know where I want to be in the fall, but I know I need to decide very soon. I have my friends there- some of the best friends I've ever had. But here, I have the city, I have my sister, and I have dancing. It's a world I never dreamed existed, and I love it all so much. I really feel like I belong here- which isn't something I ever really had at Coe.

*sigh*

What do I want? And who do I want to spend the next year of my life with?

How did I ever get put in this place to make this decision?

Why do the people I love have to be so far away from the place that feels so right for me to be?