Today was really good. And last night too... I feel a lot better about the whole relationship thing, again. I'm not looking for a relationship. He's not looking for a relationship. I had nothing to be jelous about. Best of all, I get to be friends with him, and once in a while fall asleep in his arms. It's good. He's a lot of fun to hang out with, and he's definatly a good influence on me. (I'm going to have good posture by the end of the summer if it kills me.)

I'm still a little bit shakey about my whole friend situation out here. Aside from Kat and Mike (who are both very cool and fun), Alex, Kevin, and Miles are my closest friends out here. None of them I know extremely well, and I've never hung out with Miles outside of dancing. I miss having good friends around to cry with though.

Laurie's driving out this week sometime, which should be really good. It'll be nice to have her around for the rest of the summer, and maybe I'll get to meet some of her friends out here- which also would be great. Although, in all truth, Laur is what spurred my big breakdown from the other day. I love her to death. She, though, helps me to remember once in a while that best friends can need eachother sometimes, there are other obligations. My best friends will all be far away, and although their love is true, they will move on in their lives and live happily without my company- I, on the other hand, need to find some new friends to really lean on if I don't intend on going home at the end of this summer.

Generally, I'm very happy right now. Day to day, some things start to seem a little old, but this really does feel like a good place to be. Come fall, I hope I can work out a valid plan for staying out here- because I don't think I can let myself take a break from school for very long. Also, I need to find a job very soon.

If I start getting things together, Francis might just be right- I might get through this and still be okay.