What is happiness?

I'm so lonely, I'm sitting online talking to my best friend and I"m in tears. Again.

I'm so sick of looking for answers, and trying to find a place to fit in. I'm sick of being in all the wrong places with all the wrong people, and never knowing why they're wrong.

I'm tired of crying and falling apart, and of not being able to express what I'm really feeling. And I'm tired of being sad wherever I am- because I always have reasons, but I'm beginning to believe the reasons are only there because I go out of my way to find them.

I've got a headache now, and I can't stop the tears rolling down my cheeks.

This sucks. And I don't know how to fix it.

I just don't want to be lonely anymore.