A fter staying up most of the nigth crying, praying, and not feeling well, I finally started falling sleep around seven. I'm suprised I was able to sleep at all- I was really afraid I was going to be awake for days. But my body is exausted. Even still, I don't want to move.

I was hoping so badly that it would all just be a dream, and that if I woke up everything would be alright again. But it's not.

I'm almost out of tears now. But all I want to do is cry.