A heads up... for those of you near me now, I can't deal with close snuggliness. I need space, and I need to mourn without being touched so much... I feel like I need my friends who knew him- knew what effect he had on me and on my life.

So, I appologize for tonight, and for my last days left in Seattle, because I'm going to be cold and distant.

That's the way it's going to be easiest for me to deal with this.