It's weird. I've had an hour to myself with no one to interrupt my thoughts, or pull me away from my music and computer. It's been so nice... and I'm still feeling really good about being here.

Right now, I'm listening to Blessid Union, "Hold her closer". Thinking about Jeremy.... My necklace clasp has slid down and is resting by my heart. Some people say that when you pull it back up to the middle of the back of your neck, you get one wish.
I used to wish for silly things- like that someday I would see Alicia again. Then, it became wishing that I could talk to Jeremy again. And after that, it was that Jer and I could end up as friends.
I'm not sure I believe in wishing anymore... even if I do, I'm not exactly sure who or what to be wishing for anyway.
All I know is I have my heart back, dangling on a necklace that means more to me than all of my other material possesions.

Sometimes, after thoughts like that, I feel like I need to be dragged back to reality. I get lost in remenissing, which isn't hard to do- all things considered, I spent some of the best days of my life with Jeremy when he was alive, and had the worst week of my life when I heard about his death.

I'm going to go now, and enjoy chatting with my friends while it lasts. :) It's not going to happen so much after I move into my apt, since I won't have internet.

That will take some getting used to.