I had my first day of classes today! When I left this morning, I was sure I'd be in trouble, because I wasn't dressed right... although it ended up being okay. My first Chef/professer was really nice. Anyway, I got fitted for chef clothes- which I have to wear to all my classes :( and I made a new friend!
Also, through my last class (which was really stupid and pointless) my mind was wandering a bit, and I was thinking more about Jeremy. If he were still alive, it'd be more up in the air of if I'd even made it back to Seattle... I don't know if I'd be looking at all the guys in my classes the same way, and I definatly don't think I'd get so down after hearing about people getting engaged.
Anyway, I suppose it's all part of life... getting close to people, saying goodbye to them, moving on, and starting over again. I'm just lucky to still be here.

Oh yeah.. on a down side, I went to church this past week. It occured to me that I don't know if Jeremy was still into the whole Christian faith thing... and as easy as it is for me to accept that he's gone, it's harder to imagine not ever seeing him again.
Most Christians believe they know they're going to heaven. And I think that's what I believe (yeah, that's right- I don't have stone solid beliefs anymore. It's been a hard summer, and I'm still trying to figure out where I stand on the big issues.)... but it breaks my heart everytime I wonder if he'll be there too.