Kat and Alex just left a bit ago for a concert. I was thinking about going with them, but Jonathan called and I decided to hang out with him instead- I don't see much of him these days, and I've been spending a lot of time with Kat and Alex.

Right now though, I'm at Kat's place all by myself. It's nice in it's own way- I finally have a chance to clear my head, listen to my music as loud as I want to, and just relax in a way I'm not able to do at my apartment.

I've been thinking a lot about everything Kat and Alex do for me each day. Growing up, I think my daddy always gave me the impression that even though I could give to my heart's desire- it's better not to take too much from other people. Perhaps he gave me that impression because he's so polite. Or perhaps it was really the effect my friends had on me- I never wanted to seem like a mooch, or to be too indebted to anyone. But Kat and Alex- I owe so much to them. I wouldn't survive day to day without their presence in my life.

Also, I've been getting a bit homesick lately. Today I finished watching "Ponette", a french movie about a little girl dealing with her mother's death. If my mother had died when I was so little- I think I might've reacted much in the same way... waiting for her to come back, and not being able to really move on with my life.

Right now, the people with direct presenses in my life have been making me so happy. At least, the people I know and love. Yesterday, one of my friends called me about something they read in my blog- that alone made my night worth going through. This morning, another person saw I was getting unhappy, and forced me to smile because they were sure it would make me feel better.

I'm lucky to have such wonderful people in my life.

I need them.