It's time to look inside, and figure out why I am so afraid of getting a job. I've been putting this off, and trying with half heart. So, what follows is a list of questions I found from a website encouraging moms wanting to reenter the workforce to find their confidence so they can achieve their goals.

• Why are you stressed? What do you fear? I haven't had a job in about two years. I was not extremely confident with my degree when I received it, and I don't have a lot of job experience in my field- or in any other field. I fear not being good enough, and that no one will be interested in what I have to offer. I fear letting down my family by not finding the right job with the right amount of income. I'm afraid that my son will grow up without me.
  

• Why are you feeling it? Is it because of lack of self-confidence or your circumstances? My stress and fear is a combination of my circumstances and my lack of confidence. I'm afraid of people, and I'm afraid that the circumstances pushing me into this hunt for a job are making that already present fear bigger.

• What can make you rise above the overwhelming pull of stress / negative emotions? Maybe if I got a grip on things I could do this. Or if I found the right motivation. But I feel like I already have a grip and motivation and it has not helped. I really have no idea how to rise above the negative emotions within me. :(
  

• How can you overcome them? Can it be true that you have just created such an environment for yourself? I am sure that I create some of the environment that makes this a hard process. I am sure that my environment also creates some of the stress. I don't know if there is a way to get away from it. There is so much pressure to get it done.
  

• What happens if you drop that negative emotion right now and let only the positives stay with you? Obviously, I would be finding a job and feeling good about the current circumstances, and good about the decision to go back to work.
  

• Can you do all such things today that make you feel good? I still don't know.
  

Hmm. This was not quite as helpful as I had hoped. Although, the little bit of self reflection does help put things into perspective again. :-/