I don't quit while I'm ahead, I don't give up, I don't give in. And in the end, it hurts.

I can't compare myself to other people, and I won't look at their lives and see what I don't have- because it's not fair. I don't know their worlds, I don't think their thoughts, and I only see what I want to see.

I should be sleeping right now. I wonder if Jer is, because I'm finally feeling what he went through so long ago when I'd stay up on the phone talking with him until he was tired enough not to really think.

*sigh* I'm either loosing myself again, or changing. Whatever it is, I hope it ends up okay. Because there's got to be more to life than this.