so the truth is out. i told him what i feel, and nothing will change. or, if it does, it won't be for the better.

egads, i feel like just crying, and crying and crying. i want to let all the pain and frustration that's been building up over the past few months out. i want to cry for not hearing from Jer agian. i want to cry for wanting to be needed. i want to cry for needing more than i get.

but i have no tears.

i feel like i'm going to be sick. of course, that's the aftermath of reality kicking in.