I was reading one of my best friend's blogs this morning, and she was talking about some of the friends in her life that had made the biggest difference to her. It got me thinking back a little bit.

Last week, when I was home for spring break, Kare and I were having a conversation about frienship, and why some people mean so much. We had talked about 9th grade, when my world was about to end, and how my friends affected me in different ways.
Kare I never told about my problems. I guess I never wanted her to get invovled, because I knew she hadn't ever thought about doing some of the things I was going to do.
But some of my other friends....
I was so angry with Mandy after everything went down. She and Elise had told my parents about my plot, and my world crumbled in one day. I was already on an edge, they're just the ones who forced me to fall over it. I didn't think they understood, and I felt so betrayed.

Years have passed since that day, and thinking back through the tears, hurt, anger and resentment, Mandy saved my life. By loving me enough to not let me forget that people did care, she showed me that in a world that tries so hard to bring people down, there's always love. And, without friends to pull you up and force you back into reality, you don't really have anything.

I've got to run to class, and I'm not sure if I'll finish this blog later or not. There's so much I want to express, but just don't have the words for. And the time.