Today I went to talk to Carson, the head of the music department, and my band director. I wanted to know what I'd have to do to get a music minor, since I thought it was too late to consider majoring in music. After talking with him, it turns out it's a difference of one class for me (since I passed out of one of the theory classes.)

I was really excited to hear that... partly because it means getting a minor would be silly since a major is just within reach, and partly because even though I often forget it, music was what mattered before art ever did. Every time I'd thought about getting a music major before today, I'd gotten really excited about it, and then decided against it for fear of not being able to get a decent job after I graduate.

Thinking about this for a little bit today, something occured to me. Maybe the reason I've been so unhappy lately is because I'm trying to push myself into a field that I don't really want to be in. I love art- as a hobby. I really enjoy painting, and the such. But it's not what I want to do with my life. I don't ever want art to be the center of my life, for fear I would loose my passion for it. The professors in my art department (who I seem more often than not to be rather annoyed with) have just made it easier to loose that passion.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this: If I'm unhappy persuing art at Coe, I'm going to be unhappy persuing art other places too. Music is where my heart is, it's where I can actually see myself working. Maybe it's time to switch from an Art major to a Music major.

Plus, there's politics, which I am beginning to love more than any other class I've taken. That is probably going to be my second major.

I just wonder if I could pull it all off. And if I could, would I really need to go halfway across the country to be happy with pulling it off?

I like the idea of Seattle. But I think I might've found the solution to what might make me happier at Coe.