"One less call to answer, feeling full of despair. Don't think I can get through it, just one last prayer.
Searching for the answer, nobody seems to care. Oh how I wish that you were here beside me, to wipe away my tears.
And it's a leap of faith, when you believe there's someone out there. It's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares. And when I call out to you, will you be right there? Right there... " -Michelle Branch


I feel like I'm loosing it. Why do I have to let feelings get in the way of what's real? So I like a guy who likes someone else. But even if he didn't, I'm not looking for anyone to date right now- it would be unfair to both of us (even though there is no us) because I don't know where I'll be next year. And I don't want that decision to fall on another person- I don't want anyone else to have that much of an impact on what I do or don't decide. (There is no way I could reasonably stay here for someone if I dated them for any amount of the month and 1/2 I have left on this campus). So why does it have to matter to me?

I guess my emotions have a tendancy of running away with me. I know they do.. but denying them doesn't mean they're not there. And it doesn't make it any less weird.