After watching the movie "About Shmidt" (Kristin, you should watch it! It has Broken Bow in it!), I realized part of why these past few days have been so hard.

My dreams consist of not much more than falling in love, growing old wtih someone, and raising children. Family has been such an important part of my life, and there isn't anything else I want to center my life around. I can't imagine what it will be like when I finally have my own husband and children.

My mother has watched her children grow up. And this year, she's finding herself letting go of one more of them...

I want to grow up, and find someone to grow old with. I want my own children.... but where my mother is- saying goodbye, and watching us take on lives of our own... I don't want to go through that.

I can't imagine how hard letting go is for her. And it's not something I want to put her through.....

I wish I could be her baby forever.