I feel so trapped. I've been stressing out for days on the right decision for where to be this fall...

It doesn't matter. I've said my piece, I've made my decision. But all in all, it wan's mine to decide anyway...

She says tuition really needs to be taken into consideration. All my life, they've made it so that I've had no concept of money, and so that I never really understood what our financial situation was... but I know they're hurting for money.

How would I possibly pay for college without them? How can I tell them that being happy (and if out here is where I'm happy, so be it) is more important to me right now than seeing them a lot? How do I believe that even though Seattle is the first place I've felt like I belong, I have to leave again?


Maybe I should just go back to Coe. My best friends are there. At least, the ones who were turning my life around last school year... even if I wasn't really happy, I'd have them.