%@#*%&@#()*%!@#()*%!!!!!!!

Why do I do this to msyef? Test my friends, put them in situations they can't or won't live up to, and then end up hurt because I know my expectations aren't realistic? Why can't I just tell them when I'm hurting, instead of expecing them to prove they really care?

Today was going to be a good day.. but now, any way it ends up I know I'll be angry or almost in tears by the end of the night.

*sigh* Kat had been talking about how she does this to people when she's in realtionships. I've known for a long time I did it then... I didn't realize I also do the same thing to select friends.

I'm going to go nap. Maybe that will make this agression fade.