*sigh* I seem to be at some inner conflict this morning.

Also, two thoughts that drive me crazy: First, no matter how hard I try, I can't blow over this crush. This is bad, because especially after recent news with Jeremy, I don't want anything to do with any guy- I don't want to consider getting close to anyone for a while.... that is, out of the rehlm of friends. The giddy feeling I get also comes with pangs of guilt.
Second, there will never be enough silence in this house for me to really think over what happened. I'll never get that time alone I need to deal with and sort out everything in my head. But if I don't deal, I'm going to drive myself into depression mode again soon.

There aren't very many weeks left for me in Minnesota. I hope I find a constructive way to spend them, and I hope I don't piss off all my home-town friends in the process. (I seem to be very good at offending some of them.)