TOD won't post for me right now. :(

Winter

Last night I called home and talked to my sister... she was slushed out of her football game.

Although this isn't my first year away from home, this is my first year away from the snow.

I'm not sure why this has such significance to me now. I love the snow- I wouldn't mind if it were winter all year long. But I gave it up.

I miss Jeremy a lot today, and I've been thinking about him so constantly that I broke down in tears this morning. It's been almost two months since I cried last- up until today I havn't been able to find the tears.

Letting him go has been so hard. But up until now I hand't realized just how lonely I feel. Or, maybe I had- but my mind is convinced that this is a new fresh pain.

I don't know who to depend on now... I think I have expectations that are too high for anyone to handle. Is it reality I remember back to, when I think of the nights I cried in his arms?