Today, I broke... I cried, maybe for the first time since I hanv't been able to- since after the drive home this summer. I want to write in my journal to him, but it's at my apartment. And I'm not sure I can express my thoughts right now to an empty screen.

This morning I woke up feeling a bit distant... lonely even. Kat and I just watched an anime called "voices of a distant star". That didn't help... now I just miss him more.

Even still, I feel like inside I'm crying. But the tears don't show.