When will this down feeling go away so I can be happy again and content with the way things are? I don't know how to shake it- it is overwhelming, and there isn't a good distraction for it- especially on rainy days when I am trapped in this little apartment.

I am so glad Susie is moving closer in the fall; even if she doesn't stay, even if she doesn't know just how much it will mean to me to have her closer, it will be so nice.

Until then I wish I could make a friend here. I miss my friends.