This week has been filled with a lot of emotion for me. Stress, frustration, contentment, excitement, disappointment, impatience... the list goes on and on, and there haven't even been any major events involved. More of the continuance of my internal struggle.

I don't know how normal people deal with these things. I have people I talk to sometimes, and different ways to vent my emotions- blogs, books and games for a start... but they still manage to get to me sometimes, and right now I am simmering.



"Anguish enveloped Eragon as he awoke. Though he kept his eyes closed, the could not stop a fresh flow of tears. He searched for some idea or hope to help him keep his sanity. I can't live with this, he moaned.

Then don't. Saphira's words reverberated in his head.

How? Garrow is gone forever! And in time, I must meet the same fate. Love, family, accomplishments--they are all torn away, leaving nothing. What is the worth of anything we do?

The worth is in the act. Your worth halts when you surrender the will to change and experience life. But options are before you; choose one and dedicate yourself to it. The deeds will give you new hope, and purpose.

But what can I do?

The only true guide is your heart. Nothing less than its supreme desire can help you."

-excerpt from Eragon, by Christopher Paolini