Life gets to be so overwhelming. There is so much happening here- with Alex going to school full time & still working part time, Susie back at school & working again, and then there's my job search on top of watching Braiden, looking for day cares, and keeping things done around the house.

All the emotions floating around in my head are still there, but tripled- homesickness, hopefulness mixed with fear, missing my friends, longing for things that can't be, disappointment with the way circumstances keep turning out...

And beyond that even, is the rest of the world. A new president inspiring a change so big I find myself close to tears every time I listen to him. Countries hidden from America's view that have endless fighting, and powers that do not keep their people's interests at heart. Friends who are having similar life struggles to mine, or completely different ones- happy or sad as they may be.

It is so much to take in, and I have a hard time with it. I think I always have. If only wishing were the answer, than everything weighing on me could be released; but I know it cannot be so simple as that, and wishes don't always become reality.

So, where do I go from here? I guess I will do what I always do- hang on as best I can and push through the days one at a time.