We got up this morning, dressed up, and ready to go. Got outside before we realized my husband took the car with the car seat to work- it was an accident, probably because he was in a rush, but I can't help feeling crushed.

I don't have a good way to deal with my stress these days. I am trying, and I've taken the first step to reaching out for help- I set up a counseling appointment for next month, and am trying to pull through and get things back to normal before then.

But what is normal? And how can I possibly keep things under control and try to act like a sane person when one little thing like what happened this morning almost ends up in a major break down?

Someone stumbled across my blog recently, and left a very supportive note... it left me feeling once more like there is hope out there I need to keep holding onto, and I am so glad.

Still though, I am so conflicted inside. My job search is still going nowhere. The more personal time with my husband is wonderful- but it has a lot of trade offs. And everything feels so uncertain.

I just don't know what to do.