I'm back now, from my two day trip to Iowa. To my suprise, I left behind all of my friends without any tears... I'm guessing more or less because I'm still cried out from Jeremy.

I was really scared to leave yesterday from Coe- almost as scared as I was to get there. Many of those friends I might never see again- although the few of them that actually bothered to go out of thier ways to hang out for a bit- they'd better damn well keep in touch.

Laurie and I had the funnest night I've had since I've been home- hanging out with her, the world actually felt right. I wanted to be there, I wanted her company, and I was so glad that she had time for me.

I've decided that there was far too much alone time on my drives... all together I had 14 hours to reflect on everything.

Anyway, I didn't think this entry was going to be so spontaneous, I was sure I had a lot more to say. But it all appears to have slipped out of my head... which isn't so bad I guess.

*sigh* Most of it would've been more ranting about Jeremy anyway.

Funny, how I won't see some of my best friends for at least 1/2 a year, and my thoughts still turn to him.

I need to start living for the day. Not the past.