Today I'm leaving to go visit friends in Iowa, and I'm scared. I feel sick to my stomach, I'm shaking, and trying to come up with any excuse that would let me hide in this comfort zone I call home.

When I went to visit Coe before, I was scared then too- but not as much, because I knew my friends were eager to see me, and I had my little sister with, and everything wasn't so busy and alive for them.

So what is it that leaves me shaking where I sit now?

I'm a silly girl, worrying about pointless things. I'm just glad I get to se Laur first.