Little changes scare me. So much that it's 3:30 in the morning and I haven't been able to sleep for the last 1/2 hour.

What will happen if I deviate from this schedule I have planned out in my head? Can I handle doing this alone? Will there be very many people there? Will I make it through the morning?

Maybe I should change my plans completely, or maybe I should just let it all go. But it's not that simple, because for some reason I don't know how to drop this... it wells up inside of me and becomes more of a problem then it is, and I hate that.

I know that people have their own lives to live. And I don't want to be a nag. I just don't know how to deal with these changes...